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Spiritual Awakening and the True Meaning of Ego Death

Ego Death Isn’t What You Think

If you have gone through a Spiritual awakening you know it can be a challenging but rewarding process. It’s not just about raising your vibration or seeing angel numbers. Awakening often starts with a sense that something deeper is calling you, beyond the life you’ve built and the roles you play. It’s exciting until things start unraveling. One of the most misunderstood aspects of this journey is the concept of “ego death.”

Let’s get real: ego death doesn’t mean your ego dies or disappears. You don’t become some enlightened ghost floating through Whole Foods. Instead, what’s happening is a shift in how you relate to your ego. It’s less of a death and more of a dethronement. You begin to realize that the version of yourself you’ve been clinging to, your identity, your labels, your roles, isn’t the whole story. You’re not just the thoughts you think or the stories you’ve been told. You are the awareness behind all of it.

What Is the Ego?

The ego is your psychological sense of Self—it’s the part of you that says, “I am this.” It includes your name, your job, your family role, your personality traits, your trauma, history, and your self-image. It’s the inner manager that keeps track of your place in the world. And it’s not bad! We need a sense of Self to function. The problem is when we mistake it for our true Self.

The ego is like a mask. It helps you survive and move through society, but it isn’t the deepest part of you. Underneath it is something more spacious, more aware, what many traditions call the Self, consciousness, or soul. I appreciate how Advaita Vedānta explains this deeper Self as the witness behind the roles, the body, and even the mind. You are not your job, nor your wounds, not even your spiritual identity. You are the one watching all of those things shift. Advaita Vedānta is a school of Indian philosophy that teaches the non-dual nature of reality, meaning there is no absolute separation between the individual self (jīvad) and the ultimate truth (Brahman). In simple terms, it says: you are not just a body, not just a mind, not even a personality-you are the infinite awareness behind it all. It also acknowledges the role of the ego, but sees it as a temporary construct, not your true self. Through awareness, inquiry, and presence, you can gradually “dis-identify” from the ego and rest in the truth of who you are: the Self, the Witness, the One.

So What Is Ego Death?

Ego death isn’t about erasing your personality; it’s about seeing clearly that your identity is fluid and constructed. You wake up from automatic pilot and start to notice your reactions. This realization can hit hard. It may occur during a spiritual awakening, a dark night of the soul, or even a significant life transition. Suddenly, the things that used to define you, your job, your beliefs, your relationships, don’t feel solid anymore. You might feel like you’re falling apart, or like you don’t know who you are.

This experience can feel scary: existential panic, emotional numbness, a sense of being different, or a fear that you’re losing control. But this is actually an initiation. It’s your Self reclaiming the driver’s seat. The ego may still be in the car, but it’s no longer in control of the vehicle.

The Process of Unraveling

Ego work isn’t a one-time event. It’s an ongoing process of dis-identification. One layer peels away, and you think, “Okay, I’ve got it now.” But then another layer comes up. First, you realize you’re not your job. Then, you’re not your pain. Then, you’re not even your carefully curated persona. It’s humbling. And necessary.

The ego is sneaky. It will try to rebuild itself with new, shinier labels and new identifications. After I experienced my spiritual awakening, my whole life changed, and when I started doing spiritual work and opened my business, it was easy to identify strongly with my new job and helping others. But over time, I realized that the services and needs of customers change, and clinging to one idea or persona isn’t authentic. That’s why this journey requires honesty and humility. You must continually ask: Who am I? What do I believe? Am I being authentic or performative?

What Comes After Ego Death?

After you become aware of your ego, there is more work to be done; you rebuild it, but from a different center. You’re not acting out of fear or trying to prove something. You begin living from a place of presence, making choices from your soul instead of your wounds. You become more real, more grounded, more whole.

This new way of being doesn’t reject the ego; it integrates it. The ego becomes a tool, not a tyrant. It doesn’t vanish; it softens. You learn to work with it rather than for it.

The Trap of “Love and Light”

One common pitfall in the spiritual community is bypassing this ego work by clinging to positivity. Some people get stuck in the “love and light” phase, thinking that being spiritual means avoiding grief, rage, or shadow work. But true awakening includes it all.

You’re not here to just be light. You’re here to be whole. That means letting yourself feel the grief of letting go of old identities. It means getting honest about what still hurts, where you still hold fear, and what you’ve been avoiding. Only through that honesty can you experience true freedom.

A Simple Metaphor

Think of the ego as a lantern. It helps carry the light. But it’s not the flame it is the container. Even if the lantern cracks, the flame still flickers. It might feel unstable, but it’s free.

Final Thoughts

Spiritual awakening isn’t about becoming something new. It’s about remembering who you’ve always been underneath the masks. Ego death isn’t the end; it’s a beginning. A beginning of living from the soul instead of fear. A new beginning, choosing presence over performance.

So if you’re in the thick of it, if life feels out of control, if nothing makes sense anymore, that’s okay. You’re waking up.

And the world needs more awake hearts now than ever before.

🌙 10 Signs You’re Experiencing a Spiritual Awakening

(+ The Common Pitfalls to Watch Out For)

Have you been feeling like everything in your life is shifting—or even falling apart?
You’re not losing it… you might be experiencing a Spiritual Awakening.

When your soul starts to wake up, the world around you can suddenly feel foreign, confusing, and surreal. Things that used to make sense don’t anymore. And while awakening is beautiful—it’s also messy, emotional, and full of unexpected challenges.

Here are 10 classic signs you’re going through a spiritual awakening—and the common pitfalls to watch out for along the way:


1. You’re Questioning Everything About Yourself

You start rethinking old beliefs and identities.
You find yourself asking: Who am I, really? What do I believe in? What’s the point of all this?

Pitfall: Obsessing over needing to figure it all out right away. Awakening is a process, not a checklist.


2. Everything Feels Fake

Suddenly, the things society tells you to care about—money, status, shallow conversations—feel empty and meaningless.
You crave real, authentic experiences and connections.

Pitfall: Expecting everyone around you to “wake up” with you. Not everyone is on the same timeline, and that’s okay.


3. You’re Searching for Meaning

You’re drawn to spiritual practices, self-reflection, meditation, nature, or anything that helps you feel more connected to something deeper. You want to live a life that aligns with your soul.

Pitfall: Becoming overly attached to spiritual tools and labels. Remember—you are the magic, not the crystals or rituals.


4. You Feel Out of Sync with Old Friends

The people you once related to might now feel distant or even draining.
You may feel like no one “gets you” anymore.

Pitfall: Cutting people off too quickly. Some friendships can shift and evolve—others may naturally fall away. It’s about balance, not burning bridges.


5. Your Emotions Are All Over the Place

You might feel extra emotional, sensitive, anxious, or even depressed.
The inner shifts you’re experiencing stir up old wounds and buried feelings.

Pitfall: Thinking you’re “going crazy.” You’re not. But it’s essential to care for your mental and physical well-being during this process.


6. You Notice Synchronicities Everywhere

The universe seems to be sending you signs—repeating numbers, songs, dreams, or “coincidences” that feel too aligned to ignore.

Pitfall: Over-analyzing every single sign. Trust the signs, but don’t lose yourself in decoding everything.


7. You Feel More Sensitive Than Ever

You’re highly tuned in to the energy around you—whether it’s a crowded room, a conversation, or even the collective heaviness in the world.

Pitfall: Forgetting to set energetic boundaries. Being sensitive is a gift, but you need to protect your peace.


8. You Feel Connected to Something Bigger

You have moments where you feel deeply connected to the universe, Source, or a divine presence.
These experiences can feel euphoric and affirming.

Pitfall: Getting attached to those “high” moments and feeling disappointed when they fade. Spiritual awakening isn’t always mystical fireworks—it’s often subtle and quiet too.


9. You Want to Heal & Help Everyone

You suddenly feel called to heal old wounds, grow spiritually, and help others on their path.
You want to make the world a better place.

Pitfall: Over-giving or trying to fix everyone. You can’t pour from an empty cup. Your healing matters too.


10. You Feel Like You’re Meant for Something Bigger

There’s an inner knowing that you’re here for a reason—a mission, a calling, a greater purpose.

Pitfall: Obsessing over what that “one big purpose” is. Often, your purpose evolves over time, and it’s revealed in small steps—not in one grand lightning bolt.


🌟 Final Thoughts

A spiritual awakening can feel like your entire world is falling apart—but what’s really happening is that everything false, limiting, and out of alignment is dissolving so the real you can rise.

Be gentle with yourself.
Stay grounded.
And remember: Awakening isn’t about becoming someone new—it’s about remembering who you’ve always been.


If you’re currently going through this process and want support, clarity, or energetic clearing—I offer Akashic Readings and sessions to help you navigate this powerful transformation.
Explore My Services →

🌙Understanding the Phases of Spiritual Awakening

What Phase of Spiritual Awakening Are You In?

Spiritual Awakening isn’t just a moment—it can feel like tidal wave of awareness. It’s that undeniable, sometimes messy, often magical process of realizing you are so much more than your thoughts, titles, wounds, or the roles you’ve been playing.

I remember vividly the moment before my own awakening when I quietly wondered, Is this really all there is? That question cracked something open in me—and maybe you’re here because something inside you is asking the same.


✨ Understanding the Awakening Process

Awakening is like waking up from a dream you didn’t know you were in.
You begin to see through the illusions of who you thought you were—the people-pleasing, the perfectionism, the stories you’ve carried—and sense something deeper calling you home to yourself.

But let’s be honest: it’s not always rainbows and crystals.
It’s often triggered by heartbreak, loss, breakdowns, or existential crises that shake you to your core. The path is rarely linear. It’s more of a spiral, looping back and forth as you heal, grow, stumble, and rise again.


🌙 The Stages of Spiritual Awakening

Here’s a roadmap to help you understand where you might be:


1. The Sleep Phase — Living on Autopilot

In this phase, you’re caught up in survival mode—chasing achievements, roles, relationships, or distractions without knowing why you feel disconnected.
You may feel like something’s missing, but can’t quite name it.

Signs:

  • Over-identifying with your job, status, or roles
  • Seeking external validation
  • Numbing with busyness, consumption, or perfectionism
  • Reactionary coping mechanisms
  • Feeling like you’re always “on,” but not really alive

2. The Cracking Phase — The Call to Wake Up

Life delivers a wake-up call—a loss, heartbreak, health crisis, or mystical experience that cracks your shell and leaves you questioning everything.
For me, this phase arrived after a series of personal losses and an intense detox of not just substances, but my entire way of living.

Signs:

  • Everything feels unreal or meaningless
  • Heightened sensitivity and empathy
  • Synchronicities & signs show up everywhere
  • Disconnection from old relationships or interests
  • Intense emotions, anxiety, or existential dread
  • A craving for deeper meaning and authenticity

3. The Shadow Phase — The Descent

The veil is lifted, and now the real work begins.
You face your fears, wounds, and the parts of yourself you’ve ignored or rejected. This is often called the Dark Night of the Soul—and I’ve been here more than once.

Signs:

  • Emotional upheaval: grief, rage, anxiety
  • Loss of identity, confusion, and isolation
  • Old traumas and repressed memories surfacing
  • Relationship breakdowns
  • Feeling stuck, lost, or overwhelmed
  • Confronting the inner critic, perfectionism, and old coping patterns

4. The Glimpse Phase — The Awakening

Amid the shadows, you begin to experience moments of clarity and connection. You feel your true self emerging and see the bigger picture behind your struggles.

Signs:

  • Sudden insight, peace, or spiritual connection
  • Feeling lighter and hopeful
  • Synchronicities and intuitive nudges increase
  • Reclaiming your creative spark and soul gifts

5. The Integration Phase — Walking in Both Worlds

You begin to weave your new awareness into your everyday life.
You’re not “perfect,” but you’re more aware, grounded, and aligned with who you truly are. And yes—sometimes the universe will send you little “tests” to see how far you’ve come.

Signs:

  • Less reactive, more reflective
  • A daily spiritual or mindfulness practice
  • A desire to serve, create, or uplift others
  • Kinder self-talk and healthier boundaries
  • Acceptance of both your light and your shadow

💫 Awakening Is Not a Destination

This isn’t a checklist you complete and move on—it’s a lifelong spiral of growth, healing, and remembering who you are at a soul level.

You’ll revisit old phases, face new lessons, and continue peeling back layers. And that’s okay. You’re exactly where you need to be.


🌟 So… What Phase Are You In?

I’d love to hear where you are on your awakening journey.
✨ Comment below and share your experience.
✨ Or explore more of my writings, resources, and spiritual tools to support your path.

You’re not alone in this. Your soul knew exactly when to lead you here.

🌞 Solar Return Reading vs Birth Chart Reading

What’s the Difference & Why You Might Want Both

You’ve probably heard of a Birth Chart Reading—the classic astrology deep dive that maps out your personality, gifts, and soul blueprint based on the moment you were born. But did you know there’s a lesser-known chart that’s all about your year ahead?

It’s called a Solar Return Chart, and it’s basically your cosmic birthday gift—a personalized forecast of the major themes, opportunities, and lessons coming your way over the next 12 months.

Let’s break it down:


🌟 What Is a Solar Return Reading?

A Solar Return Reading is like an astrological new year’s resolution session—but way juicier.
It’s based on the exact moment the Sun returns to the same spot it was in when you were born, which usually happens within a day or two of your birthday each year.

This chart reveals:

✨ The key themes and energies shaping your year
✨ Opportunities, challenges, and areas of growth
✨ Which parts of your life will be in the spotlight
✨ How to work with the planetary influences at play

Think of it as a year-ahead road map to help you navigate, plan, and flow with cosmic timing—not against it.


🌙 How Is It Different from a Natal (Birth) Chart Reading?

Your Birth Chart is your soul’s blueprint.
It’s the energetic imprint of the sky at the exact moment and place you were born.
It shows your personality, strengths, soul lessons, emotional patterns, karmic influences, and natural gifts—and it never changes.

Your Solar Return Chart, on the other hand, is like an annual update.
It changes every year and shows how the cosmic weather is shifting specifically for you over the next 12 months.

In short:

  • Birth Chart = Your lifelong map
  • Solar Return Chart = Your yearly forecast

The Solar Return chart doesn’t replace your natal chart—it works with it to show you how current energies are playing out in your life right now.


🎂 When Should You Get a Solar Return Reading?

The best time to get a Solar Return Reading is right around your birthday—but you can also do it a few weeks or even a month or two before to start prepping for the year ahead.

Many people treat their reading like a birthday ritual—a way to reflect, reset, and set clear intentions for the year.
It’s also a unique and meaningful gift for a friend, partner, or loved one who’s into astrology or personal growth.


💫 Why Get One?

If you want to:

  • Know what energies and challenges are showing up for you this year
  • Get a heads-up on career, relationships, spiritual growth, or personal goals
  • Align your plans and intentions with cosmic timing
  • Make your birthday feel extra magical and meaningful

…then a Solar Return Reading is an incredibly insightful tool.


✨ Ready to see what the stars have in store for your year ahead?
Book your Solar Return Reading here →

🌟 The Five Clairs of Intuition

Which Ones Do You Have?

Have you ever just known something without any logical reason? Or maybe you’ve walked into a room and instantly felt the mood shift?
That’s not your imagination—it’s your intuition speaking.

But did you know there are actually different ways your intuition can communicate with you?
They’re called the Five Clairs—and chances are, you’ve experienced at least one (if not more) without even realizing it.

Today, we’re breaking them down so you can start identifying how your own intuitive abilities are showing up.


✨ What Are the Five Clairs?

The word “clair” simply means clear in French. Each clair represents a different way we receive intuitive information beyond the physical senses.

Here’s your quick guide:


🔮 1. Clairvoyance — Clear Seeing

Clairvoyance is the ability to receive intuitive messages in the form of images, visions, or mental pictures. It’s not always like watching a movie—sometimes it’s subtle, like a quick flash of an image, a dream that feels extra real, or seeing symbols in your mind’s eye.

Signs you might be clairvoyant:

  • You visualize easily and think in pictures
  • You get vivid dreams, daydreams, or mental flashes
  • You often “see” solutions or creative ideas in your mind
  • You notice signs, colors, or symbols around you that others miss
  • You have a strong sense of aesthetics and visual detail

🎧 2. Clairaudience — Clear Hearing

Clairaudience is when intuitive information comes through as words, sounds, or music. You may hear a voice in your head (that sounds like your own or someone else’s), catch a phrase on repeat, or feel like Spirit is whispering guidance to you.

Signs you might be clairaudient:

  • You often hear songs that “speak” to what you’re going through
  • You talk to yourself in your head a lot and get clear answers
  • You sometimes hear your name called when no one’s there
  • You get intuitive nudges in the form of a word or phrase
  • You’re sensitive to sounds, voices, or background noise

💡 3. Claircognizance — Clear Knowing

Claircognizance is the ability to simply know something without knowing how you know it. It’s an instant, deep knowing that comes out of nowhere—but is usually right.

This is one of the most common intuitive abilities and often the hardest to trust because it bypasses logic.

Signs you might be claircognizant:

  • You get “downloads” of information or solutions out of the blue
  • You often say, “I don’t know how I know… I just know.”
  • You have strong gut feelings that turn out to be accurate
  • You can size people up quickly and accurately
  • You sense the truth beneath what people say

🌬️ 4. Clairsentience — Clear Feeling

Clairsentience is the ability to feel and sense energy, emotions, or even physical sensations that aren’t yours. If you’re an empath, you likely have strong clairsentience.

Signs you might be clairsentient:

  • You can instantly feel the mood of a room or person
  • You absorb other people’s emotions or energy easily
  • You feel physical sensations when something is “off”
  • You experience intuitive hunches as feelings in your body
  • You feel called to comfort, heal, or support others

🌹 5. Clairalience & Clairgustance — Clear Smelling & Tasting

These two are less common but very real!
Clairalience is intuitive information through smell, while Clairgustance is through taste.
You might suddenly smell a loved one’s perfume or taste something you haven’t eaten in years—both can be Spirit’s way of sending a message.

Signs you might have these clairs:

  • Smelling scents (flowers, smoke, perfume) when no source is present
  • Tasting specific foods or flavors out of nowhere
  • Smelling or tasting something linked to a loved one in Spirit
  • Scent or taste triggering a strong intuitive memory

🌙 Why Does This Matter?

Learning how your intuition naturally speaks to you helps you: ✨ Trust your inner guidance
✨ Strengthen your spiritual connection
✨ Understand yourself on a deeper level
✨ Move through life with more clarity and confidence

Most people have one or two dominant clairs—but with practice, all of them can be developed.


💫 So… What’s Your Strongest Clair?

Pay attention to how intuitive information shows up for you.
Do you feel it, see it, know it, hear it—or even smell or taste it?

Comment below and share which clair(s) resonate with you!
And if you want to learn how to strengthen your intuitive abilities, check out my Akashic Records sessions and trainings—where we tap into your unique spiritual gifts and help you unlock your inner knowing.